THE HURTING: the sad impossibility of never disappointing

Connections, short circuits,
I have loved, unloved,
Floundered, 
Growing, experience by experience.
Unsettled, I have staggered on,
Fragile, broken, mending,
Fluffing tattered feathers,
Shocking,
Upsetting,
Disturbing the peace.


I inspect my heart and find
Beauty alongside Ugly.
Polishing my sparkle,
I seek, grow, heal,
Hoping to never displease.

I want the impossible.

You strike me down,
Momentarily blinded by my ugly.

I forgive you.
I forgive myself.

This is my truth.